I want you .

Well, you may ignore the previous post. It was just a melt down. But whatever. Desh made me realize something today. And I felt so stupid for not realizing it from the start. I guess, I might do what he said. He can do that to me, why should I not do it right? So, I guess I'll do it. But I'm not strong enough to do it. I'm weak, I admit it. I need the strenght and confidence to do it. I doubt I can do it, but I'll try because it's for my own good.

I feel too lazy to update about school or what so ever. It's normal. You wake up in the morning, go to school, study, meet the friends, talk, study, study and study. Normal. So, there's nothing interesting to update.

I don't have any topic to blog because "he" is in my mind. I need my friends to make me forget about him at least for about 4-5 hours? Because, normally when I go to school, I rarely talk about him. No la, that's a lie. I do talk about him to Teyra, but after I tell her everything, it's done. I won't think about him until I get home. When I get home, I'll be alone, so i'll think of him. It sucks! It sucks in a good way. Something like that lah right.

When I see a couple, I'll think of him. haih, I guess I just have to bare with it, right? oh, my birthday is coming soon. :) Well, to be honest, I'm not all excited about it. I'm just not. I don't know why. :/

Hey, I think I'm giving up. I have my reasons, but I am just not strong enough to let everything go. Why am I NOT strong? GOD! I have to be strong, I WANT to be strong. But i'm NOT. It has been 8 hours since we last talk or atleast text. And for that, I don't feel like my day has complete. For the past few days, my day was not complete. :( I need it to be complete. And for that to happen, is for you to be here. To be here with me. Haih, I'm babbling now. I think I shall stop. Tears are pouring down and I don't like it. Like I said, when I miss you, I'll cry easily. And I guess I'm missing you now. Right this moment.

Well, I hope you'll have a great life a head with someone who you really love. That sentence is for you IF one day, I have really really given up. That's all for now.

Oh, Aidi has finally uploaded the pictures from the wedding. But I'm too lazy to upload them. :p So, one day when I'm not lazy, I'll post some of them up.

P/s : KHALEESA, I'm still waiting for the pictures from you! You better give them to me or I'll keep bugging you for it. :p