End year sale has begun!

Yeap, as the title says END YEAR SALE HAS BEGUN! I told Mother that I need new clothes. So, today I woke up at 1pm. lol. I thought I was late for outing with my family but, Daddy and Ayom went to the Saloon, Mommy was baking pie, Angah was in College for some charity thing. So, fuuuuuiih! Anyway, went out around 7.30pm. Wanted to go to Sunway Pyramid but it was jam! We know if we went towards Sunway, we'll get stuck for about an hour. So, we went to Subang Parade instead. Went to Voir but I didn't see anything I like. So, went to Parkson. Got a blouse. Then, went to Dorothy Perkins. Got a skinny and a blouse. :) Next shop, Clarks.

Okay, about this it's kinda complicated. On Wednesday i think, I bought a pair of shoes in Subang Parade too. But it hurts when I walk. So, Daddy and Mommy decided I should buy a new shoes that is comfortable and would last long. So, thats why we went to Clarks. I bought a pair of shoes there. Daddy bout his too. :) HAPPY! But I'm still hoping that I'll get to buy another pair of jeans, few blouse that I'll definitely wear and a dress maybe? Oh, I'm in need of T-shirts for my daily wear. You know, if I'm going out just to hang out kind of T-shirts. Oh, and hoping to buy the trend style nowdays which is the box shirt. Ala, yang budak2 zaman sekarang suka pakai. LOL. But, if I get maybe 55/100% of what I want is already good enough. :)

So, it's already 12.08am now. I shall go to bed. My kaki's are killing me. My eyes are half open. I'm having a headache. So, yea. I shall sleep now. Oh, I hope tomorrow Daddy wouldn't mind if I wanna shop a lil more. Subang Parade and Sunway Pyramid maybe? I want to buy another blouse I bought from Parkson and the Boot cutted jeans from Dorothy. heee :) From Sunway? Hmm, I shall see what's eye catching to me. LOL. Night love!

P/s : I have not gotten the pictures from Qairul Ain yet. So, be patient yea. LOL.

Vampire

So, as the title says, Vampires. Vampires are sometimes hot. Well, in movies I mean. And, it just melts my heart when I see a guy protecting the girl of his life. The girl he loves, the one he calls "my soul" It's so hot when a guy is protective of the girl, but not overprotective lah. You guys must be thinking, what the hell am I saying right? So, here goes. Twilight the movie was great. Since I didn't read the book, i didn't know what to expect. For some people, they have put high expectations for the movie since the book was a top 1 book. So, we (Fana, Farah, Tasha, Qairul, Saiful, Shar's sister and I) went into the movies late. We didn't get to watch maybe about 5minutes of the starting. But, guess what. The minute Edward Cullen appeared in the movie, the scene where he came into the cafeteria, I was like "OH MY DEAR GOD!" That guy is so fineeee. About 90/100% of the people in the movies, was like "awwwwww" the minute Edward step inside the cafeteria. And I was ONE OF THEM. Trust me, to all the girls who HAVEN'T watch the movie, believe me your heart will melt when you watch Edward's character. He's just TOO hot.

Anyway, I cried for about 2 scenes from the movie. The reason why I cried because, it was so sweet seeing Edward protecting Bella and was being all cool and I'm-ready-to-give-up-my-life-for-you kinda action you know. It just melts my heart. At first, I thought, why the hell is this guy being all rude and not smiling in the movie. Towards the end, when he smiled, I swear he is just HOT. Okay, I know I've mention he's hot for like many times, but I just can't get enough of it. I have this habit where, if I like the movie or story, I'll imagine myself in it. Well, after I've watched it la. Get what I mean? Ahh, never mind if you don't. It's a big secret in my life. It's embarrassing.

But it's just a big disappointment when I see Edward Cullen or his real name Robert Pattionson's picture outside of Twilight. It's a big turn off! In twilight, he is just simply HOT, but outside? He doesn't look good. That is because of his uglaaaaayyy hair style. If he styled up his hair and doesn't go all messy, I bet he'll be hotter than ever. But who am I to judge right? All the girls and GAYS still goes crazy over him even with his hair style. I guess that's just him. :) So, I shall stop talking bout Twilight or I know I'll spread all the details here. I know some of you have not watch it, so I'm gonna be nice. I'll hold back and WON'T spread the details here. See, I'm nice.

So, now I'm gonna update about what I did after watching the movie. Movie ended about 6pm. Walked around Pyramid with them. Too lazy to mention any names. You guys should know who you are. Hang out at J.Co donuts. Got back home around 7.45pm. Mother came to pick me up. Got back home, I was too tired to do anything. but I still had to online for some reasons. Wan and Nik came by for Shisha. Hang out with them for about half an hour. I was toooooooo tired! Was wishing that I could sleep before 1am. But it didn't happen. I couldn't sleep. So, I watched Ugly Betty till about 2.30am. Tried to sleep, but still couldn't. So listened to musics for a while and fell asleep at sharp 3am. Woke up around 1.30pm. That's what I do this holiday. Sleep late, wake up late, eat, online, out, tv, sleep and the routines just goes round and round. It's BORING! I need some excitement. But what the hell, I need to enjoy life while I can, right? That's what I'm doing.

So back to the story. woke up at 1.30pm, Qairul texted me and invited to go for a jog in MPSJ. At the very last minute, I was lazy and had stomach ache. So, I didn't go. I jog at home. On the treadmile (however you spell it). Started at 4.30pm and ended at 5pm sharp. So half an hour enough la right? Atleast I excerside. So, Daddy gave me the permission to go out that night since I haven't gone out at night this week. So, went to Carlos (typical friday routine). Hang out for a while with Ayom, Lily and Kak Irma. Then Tasha came. Oh that minah lied to me. She said she couldn't come but she did! Nasib baik aku sayang kau! Then, ate my dinner while waiting for the guys to come. Hang out with them. Laughed a lot. I realize, I laughed a lot for the past 2 days. Thursday and Friday. Hoping that today, Saturday I'll laugh again. So, Angah and Sara picked us up. Got back home around 10.20pm. 10 minutes early from curfew time. LOL. Proud! ;D

Got back home, watched Nanny Diaries with Angah, Mother and the maid. lol. It was a fun movie la. It was ok, not bad. haha. So, went up wanted to update the blog before midnight, but I was just too lazy. It's 2.10am now. I want to sleep, but I'm not that tired yet. I'm just killing time so that I'll get tired and I'll sleep. LOL. But my sister, Ayom is next to me now. She's sleeping. BISING! haih, I get so annoyed when she sleeps. I wish if I snap my finger, she'll stop bising! *I just tried it, but it didn't work. haih.

I shall stop blogging for now. Am tired of it. Don't get me wrong. I'm stopping from blogging for today. For atleast 12-15 hours la. I wanna rest from it. I'll post some of the pictures during the day out with friends at Pyramid ones I get the pictures from Qairul Ain. Night love!

P/S : Blogspot is being a bitch! I typed all this like half an hour ago, and when I post it, it was just messed up! I had to type it all over again, lucky I have saved it. So just copy paste la right. LOL. BYE

This post is kinda Long. I didn't realize. Sorry. I promise I'll post a shorter post the next time. LOL. Night all.

Random thoughts.

Well, today was a boring day I guess. I didn't do anything. Sat at home. hmm , I don't know what to blog about. Well, let me see. Why must people tend to be so rude and acting all like oh-im-working-i-have-a-job. Just so you know babe, it's just part time. I know you'll say that it's experience, but hey! You don't have to go all rude and snobbish bout it. Everyone will get their experience of working. duh! *OH, i'm not talking about you. Jangan terasa siapa-siapa okay.

Anyway, back to the story, I'm glad and thankful you HAVE a job. A BIG CONGRATS to you. *applause applause but, when you have a job, but you act as if it's like a big job, trust me my dear, people will act nice in front, but behind you all they say is "eh asal dia budget gila ada kerja?" or "gila perasan sial dia. ada kerja nak gelabah penat la apa la" You get what I mean?

Well, if your job is like an internship or proper job then that's a different story la right. haih, I don't know la what to say. Do whatever you want ok, my dear beloved friend?

P/s : siapa-siapa yang terasa, nasib la ok. I didn't mention any names or where the person works. So, don't blame me if you terasa. It might be you, or maybe you. See, there's many "YOU" in this blog. So, jangan terasa. LOL. *Just killing time. am tired but can't sleep. BYE all.

I just stopped .

Today, Monday November 24th 08, was a very fun fun day. NOT! haih, I woke up at 11 maybe. Texted Tasha. She said her car is full so I can't follow her to Lake view. Hmm. Then , she said she's going at 1pm with Sue. So i was on the way, I called her, sue was still sleeping at her house and Tasha was not ready yet. So punctual huh? So i canceled, and went to Pink in Sunway College. Hang out with my sisters for a while. Hang out with Fad , 2 girls and Johan. It was kinda funny la hanging out with Fad. He's funny and friendly :) Got back home around 2.15pm.

The minute I got home, I tried to send songs to daddy via email, but guess what! My internet connection was being a bitch! I was waiting for half an hour for it to send the FIRST SONG, but it didn't even send okay! During that 30 minutes, I had a plate full of Nasi Goreng Sardin, I got to clean my bedroom (well part of it) burn like 3 cd's. haih, so slow! I could have had a 30minute nap, but I'm not the nappy type of a person. So yea. Messaged Dad, told him I'll transfer the songs to his thumb drive when he gets back home. It took only 5 minutes okay! Haih.

So anyway, back to my MONDAY , November 24th. It was boring. Come on guys! Spell it together with me - B.O.R.I.N.G! So, didn't do much today. Wanted to shisha at home, texted Tasha, she was going to watch a movie with some guy. haih! Anyhow, I'm hoping for tomorrow to be NOT boring ok! I need more friends. I'm out of friends. LOL! HAHAHAHA. Hoping for breakfast tomorrow with my sisters. Or maybe sister? lol.

Anyway, that's it for now. BORED! KHALEESA, I NEED YOU BADLY! I'M DEAD BORED! hurry come back home so that I can sleepover your house and have a gossip girl session with you. :)

Nyte all!

Khaleesa Zaidan.

You'll always be a part of me

Khaleesa Zaidan is her name. I've known her all my life. Well, duh! We're cousins. Anyway, we're really close to each other. We tell each other everything. I tell her everything. She knows me well enough to judge me. She knows when I'm lying, she knows when I'm down, she knows when I'm all hyper up. Easy said, she knows me.

We've been through a lot together. We've fought, laugh, cried all together. She's nice, kind, and so NOT greedy! I'm serious. I never, for a second, hated her or dislike her attitude. She is what she is. She doesn't act or in other words, she's not a 2 faced girl. She is what she is. And that's why I love her. I love her for who she is.

Some said, we look like sisters, some said we're best friends, some said she's my bitch. Well, that's freaking right people! She's like my sister, she's my TRUE FRIEND, she's my bitch, SHE'S MY EVERYTHING. Nothing nor no one can even try to make me hate her because, our relationship or friendship is really tight. Out of all people in this world, I trust her the most *well besides my parents & siblings* I trust her because she knows what to do when I'm down, depress or stress about anything. Her words of wisdom are the words I depend on to solve my problems.

Khaleesa Zaidan, you're my cousin, you're my true friend, you're my bitch, you're the person who I trust the most, YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME. You mean the world to me. I can't imagine for a sec, if you're not part of my life. I love you biatch! I miss you! I miss our long talks, long messages, long chat, gossips and all.

I know, I can always depend on her. She's always there for me. And for that, I want her to know that I am always here for her. No matter what happens, even if the worlds fall apart, I am always here for her. Babe, you have to know that you can always depend on me. Not matter how far apart we are.

P/s : Babe, I know this is so cliche, but it's from the bottom of my heart. This post is sincere. All the post that I'm gonna post about the people I love are all from the bottom of my heart. :)

What a day.

Oh well, I have been in this page, I mean this blogspot for quite sometime today. Trying to get up and stop being lazy to update. I just am too lazy. lol. I don't know why. I have tons to update. I'm in the process of posting a post about the people who matters most to me. Well, you guys just have to wait, alright? :)

Khaleesa is in Aussie. I miss her terribly. I had a chat with her yesterday. She said she bought me something. Aww, how sweet of you darling. Can't wait for our family trip end of this year. Days to spend with my precious family! Watched GG and OTH episode 11 yesterday. It was ok. I'm getting tired of their drama. LOL. But it's fun! But sometimes, it's tiring because I'll be all curious about what happens in the next episode. sigh.

Anyway, woke up at 9.30am today. Sent Angah off to her college and she's off to PD for 3 days. Went to Teyra's house at 12pm. Sue was already there but sleeping. lol, had a chat with Teyra while Sue was asleep. Had our lunch together. Around 2pm, we all slept. Includding BIBI, Teyra's kitten. lol. Tasha came at 3.10pm. So much for a before-3pm-arrive right tasha? lol. Chat chat. We didn't do crazy things this time. We planned something. Well, it's not for sure. Hopefully.

Got back home around 5pm. And now I'm here. Blogging. B.O.R.I.N.G.! I'll be going out soon. Hopefully! *finger crossed! Anyway, I gotta go now. Dinner time. Till next time yea. :) BYE!

Correction

HEY GUYS! JUST WANNA INFORM ALL OF YOU THAT, HELMI IS IN THE HOSPITAL DUE TO REMOVING HIS APENDIX. HE'S IN SMC HOSPITAL, WHICH IS SELANGOR MEDICAL CENTRE, SHAH ALAM. FOR MORE INFORMATION, PLEASE CONTACT FARHANA OR HELMI'S SISTER. PLEASE VISIT HIM AS HE IS IN PAIN AND IN NEED OF HIS FRIENDS COMFORT. THANKS!

Why she had to go ?

Why she had to go I don't know, she wouldn't say

I know it's for only 11 months, but to me, 11 months is like few years. I truly can't live without her. I spend almost everyday with her. I share everything with her. I tell her everything. She knows me. When I'm down, she'll know how to cheer me up. When I'm sad, she'll lend me a pair of ears for her to listen to my problems, she'll lend me her shoulder for me to cry on. She'll give me a hug when I need them. When she's far away, who's gonna give me all that? hmm, I wonder.

We got close to each other early this year but we've knew each other few years back. I just can't imagine my days next year without her because this year, I spent almost everyday together with her. We hang out at each others houses, we hang out at our favorite spot which is Kopitiam, Strawberry fields - Taipan. We're in the same class this year. She's the class monitor. She's the laughing gas in the class. She's friendly, kind, loving and the list goes on and on.

There are tons of memory I have with her. We're like sisters. Ever since she told me she's leaving, the memories are all coming back. One by one. And it kills me knowing that she won't be here next year. It's our senior year, and we can't spend the time together. We can't do what seniors do together. I can give you my word that next year, I'll definitely be lost without her.

All the memories won't be erase, but I will treasure it. All our inside joke, our conversations, our pictures - Memories! I'll treasure it forever. I won't forget about it, but I know all of those memories will be kept and lock in my heart & mind.

I know I have other friends that I can share everything with, but it's not easy for me to replace her. She will never be replaced! No matter how far she is, she has the spot in my heart. That's for sure. Our friendship is Gold to me. I wouldn't want to replace it with anything in this world! Our friendship is tight. No one can break us apart.

Nurul Natasha, you will never be replaced. You will always have the spot in my heart. I know you're doing this for your future, and I have to accept the fact. It's hard, but it may take some time. I'm proud of you, I love you, I care about you. I do!

I told Teyra 2 days back. I said, I just can't treat Tasha the way I normally treat her because I know letting her go later will be hard. But Teyra said, I should spend and treasure the times I have with her now. So, yea. I realize that other than crying about Tasha leaving, I would definitely want to spend more time with her and make more memories so that when we finish our high school and we reunite, we can definitely have a blast from the past.

* Gosh, I cried while doing this. Aku sayang kau tasha! SAY, I love you. :)

A day to remember! FUN

First of all, planned to have lunch and movie at Sunway. But then, some of us didn't have the budget for it. So we went to Darus SS15 instead. Oh yea, forgot to mention their names. lol. Tasha, Teyra, Sue and I. I woke up at 12pm. Mother said text her when I'm ready to go. So, picked Tasha and Teyra up. Called Sue. She was still asleep! lol. And there's a funny conversation btween Sue and I. Check it at her blog. Tu la Sue, tidur lambat lagi. Lol. So, reached Darus, had our lunch and waited for Sue to arrive. Makan-makan, talk-talk. Then we planned to go for a karaoke. We planned either Karaoke or Foosball. Then there were too many people. So we decidd to karaoke. 50sen per song. Cheap uh? :)

So we paid that guy RM6. We sang 12 songs. Well, not really 12 la. Wasted about 3 songs cause we salah tekan. LOL. It was really fun. I warned the girls about something. Malu nak tulis dekat sini. haha, So nyanyi-nyanyi. Layan perasaan. Then we danced. HAHA. There's this guy. He passed through our booth. His fas was soooo funny when he saw us, 4 girls dancing. lol. But it was really fun oh. Then, it was raining heavily. We got tired and hot after the singing and dancing session. So we headed down. Yudesh, Irfan and Aiman was there. So we hang out for a while. Waited for the rain to ease down a little. Syazwan came. lol. Gaduh je Sue & Syazwan. But still cute. WHATEVER. lol.

Anyway, we were really really wet. Went to Teyra's house. No one was there except for her cat, BIBI. hahaha. So we had a party! jyeaaaah babeeeyh! lol. We went to the Computer Room. We turned on few songs and danced our ass off! We even recorded it. Funny. I think Teyra will post it. I'm not sure. but I definitely won't post it up. Too embarassed. LOL. So back to the story. We danced, sing, cam whored, chit cat. It was really really extremely fun! No words can describe how I felt yesterday. *Big smile on my face*

There are tons of picture but all with Tasha. So, will upload few once I get it. Seriously, I had so much fun hanging out with the girls. Plus, Mummy was being so cool today. She let me out. Should do this again one day. Soon! Before Tasha leaves! :|

Anyway, I'll post the pictures when I get it. Now tengah pening kena hujan semalam. So, LATER YAW!

UPDATED*

In the Karaoke Booth.Teyra's house after kene hujan. lol
Group photo. FAMILY!

A fun weekend. :)

So, my weekend Saturday and Sunday was fun. Spend the time with my family. My big family. Mother's side.

Saturday-
In the morning, I didn't do anything much. Stayed at home and all. Around 4pm Ayom and I went to Mother's office. Around 5.30pm went down to Kopitiam. Hang out with Wan & Kak Irma. Around 6.30pm Wan sent us back home. Got ready and off to Tok Ma and Tok Pa's house around 7.30pm. MAMA IS BACK! yeaaay! She's back after staying in UK for 2 months. She bought chocolate for my family. Mama and Ikram also bought a necklace for my sisters and i. I'll take a picture of it later. It's nice and sweet of them. Well, Ikram is not back. He'll be back InsyaAllah on the 16th of Dec.

Had dinner at my grandparents house. Who was there? hmmm, My family, Mama, Mood, Aishah, Dijah, Khaleesa, Sheera, Areef, Tok ma and Tok pa. It's been a while since I met Mood. The last time I saw him was on the day Ikram left and it was not long. So yea. Took few picture with Khaleesa. lol, dah lama tak lepak with her.
Well then, Mama was helping Tok Ma to pack her begs because Khaleesa and her family plus Tok ma and Tok pa are going to Aussie for 2 weeks the next day. So they were getting ready. Had a chit chatw with Mama. Oh, Skype for a while with Ikram. He just woke up. So yea, his sleepy voice right. lol. Around 10.50pm went to Pyramid with my family. We went for a movie. Madagascar 2. I was so tired. The movie was at 11.30pm. I almost slept in the movies, but I didn't. lol. The movie was not bad. But I prefer the first madagascar. The movie ended at 1am. Got back home around 1.30am. Slept at 2am. That's it for Saturday.

Sunday-
Woke up at 11.30am. Took my shower and got ready for lunch with Mother's side family. We're celebrating the Octobers and Novembers birthday. We went to some Thai restaurant in Damansara. I didn't really like the food, but it was ok la. Took some pictures with the cousins or of the cousins. lol. After lunch, we went to grandparents house. Hang out. Took more pictures. Chit Chat. Bullied the kids. haha, thats what we do. Oh, sadly Ashraf coudlnt join us. Because his in Melaka. He went for this camp I think for his future school. lol, boarding school. He'll probably attending that school next year. :( My two favorite boy cousin will be AWAY from me. haih.

Around 4pm went to Jaya. Did some groceries. Got back home around 6.30pm. Onlined for a while, and got ready to go to the airport. 8pm, Mummy, Angah and I went to LCCT airport. Mama, Mood and us went to sent them off. Mama and Mood made a move around 9pm ? Hanging out with Khaleesa was fun. haha, we made fun of people around us. NOT. OH! We saw Britney and Kevin! HAHAHA. It was funny. Anyway, we went back around 10.10pm. Sent them off. They're going for 2 weeks. After that, I'll be sleeping over their house. hehe. Got back home, and I'm doing this now. lol.

Here are some pictures from the lunch. :) I'll post just 2 picture because blogspot is being a bitch for not letting me post more pictures. LOL. Nyte nyte all! Tok Pa and some of his grandkids. :)

P/s :: Khaleesa! I miss you already. You're probably on the plane right now. hehe, I'll see you in about 16 days. haha, LOVE YOU BABE!

A hell of a week.

I have like a lot to update but i cannot remeber most of it. Well, it was just a simple week. Went out with friends. Breakfast, outings. Well, I'm actually posting about the last day of school. Well, I didn't want to go at first, then Qairul called me and said that everyone's going. So, i asked the girls if they're going or not. Tiqot said yes, Qairul - yes, Tasha - yes, Teyra - yes, Sue - no. lol.

So I went to school around 7.20am. Sampai about 7.30 maybe? Second time in my high school history that I came to school late. lol. When I arrived, Teyra and Tasha arrived too. So we walked. Guess what, our class, 7 people came. The class was empty. Th school was empty. Because Form 5's doesn't have any paper on that day, form 3 dah cuti last week. So morning sesion, only form 4. You can count how many Form 4's came actually.

So, we sat in the class. Talked for a lil while. We got bored, so we took our begs and went out to Tasha's house. lol. We went there because her parents and siblings was not home. So party la kan? HAHA! Mummy was so kind so she came and bought for us Nasi Lemak for breakfast. Then, we went infront of school for a lil while. Hang out with the boys. Then went back to Tasha's house to colour her hair. haha, Tasha kene marah like banyak kali from teyra an i because she kept moving her head.

Yudesh picked Teyra up and they went out. I stayed there till 4pm. Wan picked me up then w picked Teyra up from Yudesh's house sent her back home and went round and round with Wan for a chit chat. That's what we do. haha. So, I got back home it was raining heavily, so i slept till like 9pm. and then aroun 12.30am I slept till like 10am. I sleep a lot for the past few days.

I guess, that's it for now. No pictures since I'm at my Mom's office. OH OH, i found out 2 things yesterday. And both are very disgusting and i'm truly dissapointed when i got the news. haih. I know one of the story is definitely true and i'm hoping for the other story to be false. *finger crossed* So, anyway that's it for now. Take care people!

p/s :: Congrats to both of my cousin, Ashraf and Dijah. Ashraf got 5A's for his UPSR and Dijah gpt 3A's. I'm proud of both of you. You guys did your best. :) Love!

If there are spelling error in this post, do forgive me. I dislike using my mom's computer because of the keyboard. lol. Take are, love!

I miss you.

When I listen to this song, I would definitely remember my late friend. Arwah Remmy. I know I'm not supposed to cry , but I'm crying just because I miss him and I'm happy because I know he is in a better place. That is with God. I know he's save there. But it's not wrong for us to miss our friend right? Well, thats what I feel. I miss him.

you used to call me your angel,
said I was sent straight down from heaven
you'd hold me close in your arms
I love the way you felt so strong
I never wanted you to leave
I wanted you to stay here holding me

I miss you,
I miss your smile
and I still shed a tear
every once in a while
and even though it's different now
you're still here somehow
my heart won't let you go
and I need you to know
I miss you
sha la la la la
I miss you

you used to call me your dreamer
and now I'm living out my dream
oh, how I wish you could see
everything that's happening for me
I'm thinking back on the past
it's true that time is flying by too fast

I miss you,
I miss your smile
and I still shed a tear
every once in a while
and even though it's different now
you're still here somehow
my heart won't let you go
and I need you to know
I miss you
sha la la la la
I miss you

I know your in a better place, yeah
but I wish that I could see your face, oh
I know that your'e where you need to be
even though it's not here with me

I miss you
I miss your smile
and I still shed a tear
every once in a while
and even though it's different now
you're still here somehow
my heart won't let you go
and I need you to know
I miss you
sha la la la la
I miss you

I miss your smile
and I still shed a tear
every once in a while
and even though it's different now
you're still here somehow
my heart won't let you go
and I need you to know
I miss you
sha la la la la
I miss you

Song title : I miss you
Singer : Miley Cyrus.

Betrayed

I won't hesitate to react if things get worst
I hate being betrayed!

Do you know how it feels when some one you thought was funny, kind, trust worthy and understanding , just betray you like that? She's like a 2 face slut. Infront of you, she can oh-so-kind but behind you? NOOOO! She'll talk shits about you to YOUR own best friend. WTF weh?! You guys may not understand what I'm saying. Well, let me write it here.

I have a friend. Well, at first she was real kind. I trusted her. Trust-ED her. I tell her almost everything. But I just found out from someone, that she betrayed me. Well, not really to say betrayed la. But she has this two face. She'll act all innocent infront of me, but behind my back? She'll "kutuk" me like shit. No wonder she can act. This whole time, she, being nice to me is all just ACTING. BULLSHIT LA WEH!

She cheats on guys. She'll say to other guy whom is not her boyfriend that she's single but actually she HAS a boyfriend. Gila tak boleh blah weh. She's a DANCER! WOOOOWWW! Big deal right. I know I'm a dancer too. But I don't go shake my booty infront of guys I don't know. Yea, that's what you do. You're a slut. HAHA. I know one thing, I won't trust her anymore. Even if she comes begging to me for forgiveness. I'll forgive her, but i definitely WON'T forget what she did or said about me. I don't need this kind of people in my life. In fact, I don't think we need this kind of people in the world.

I think I should stop blogging about this. Like I said in my previous post, I want to take baby steps. So, i'll forget bout this (even though it's hard), but I'll try and just act as normal as possible. yea. :)

*I didn't mention any names, so siapa-siapa terasa tu, nasib la. Siapa termakan cili, dia terasa pedasnya. whatever la. I don't know that ayat. lol.

Taking baby steps.

I miss laughing my heart out without having to cover my sadness. I want to be happy.

I've had it with all the drama. I'm done trying. I've tried too hard that it had made me weak. I surrender. You win. Everyone wins. I give up. I'm giving up in everything. Not just YOU but also him. I'm done. I'm done thinking about him everyday every minute. It hurts. But, I know i'll have to be strong. I'll try. But as for now, I'm weak, I'm tired, I give up and I've had enough. Enough with all the drama and shits.

All I need now is time to build up my confidence and my strength to face the facts. I'm not hiding from my problems. I'm hiding from the reality of live. I'm just taking a step back and trying to take baby steps to build everything back. I'm done thinking bout others. Because I know, in the end I'll end up hurting myself. Now, I would love to relax and like i said, take baby steps to prove to myself that I can do it. I can be strong, be confident, and do everything I like with enthusiasm. I know i can. I know I'll get that one day. One fine day.

I won't be all sad and depress thinking "why isn't he replying to my messages or wall or comment" or "why did they do this to me? Why did she betrayed me?" NO! I will definitely stop thinking about all this. I can't promise that I will forget all those in just a blink of eye, but I can promise that I'll try. I'm done with it. I'm done with their drama. Love comes when it's ready. I still remember , once I told Hanie that I don't have a boyfriend so whats the point of me doing the survey she tagged me. Then, she replied "lol..okay baby hahah someday you'll have one...just dont rush and it'll fall perfectly into the missing pieces" I believe in what she says. I won't rush. I'll just wait and let it all fall perfectly into the missing pieces in my life.

That's it for today. Not feeling like blogging for a while. Will rest for a while. Take care everyone. Starting today, I'm done thinking bout you. As if you care right? So, yea. that's my point. I'm done caring about her, and i'm done thinking bout him. If we, him and me are meant to be together, then we will one day. and as for her, if we are meant to be the best of friends (Like how i want it to be), then our friendship will be ok sooner or later.

Right NOW..

Gonna make it simple.

Thursday -
Went to school because they had some Raya/Deepavali Celebration. So I went as usual. AND I forgot that we had to bring out text books that we got from the government. We had to give it back on that day, but I didn't even brought any single book. So I decided to give it on Monday. :) But anyway, helped Ustazah potong ketupat. Watched the students who joined the Colam competition did their Indian Tradition Colam. It was really nice. :) Helped Ustazah set up the place for the foods and drinks. It was really fun. Ate pulut kuning and rendang Ayam with Tasha & Qairul. Laughed with Radhi and the boys. Watched the perfomances. Went back home around 1.15pm. Went to Tasha's house. Mum picked me up around 2pm. Went back home, had some drama (Maid and mother drama) Well actually the drama happened when I was in school. So mum was just telling me the story IN DETAILS. :) Nothing much happened.

Friday
Didn't go to school. Was too lazy. Asked the girls if the plan of going for a jog at MPSJ was still on. And they replied yes. So I went there. Qairul and her brother was already there. Then Tasha and Shasha came. So just us. Then, around 5pm, they wanted to go to Baskin since it's the 31st. So they went. I waited for mom to pick me up. Then we went and pick my sisters up. Then we went to Taipan. Saw Sue, Helmi, Fana and Aula worked at Baskin. There was too many people. :) When back home, took my shower. Went out to 15. Lepak and got back home.

Saturday
Can't reallu remember what I did. But I think, woke up. Went to Bangsar Village. Did a lil shopping. Had lunch at D'lish. Then, Daddy got a called. So we went to KLCC. Hang out with AYom at The Apartment. Went to ISetan. Got back home around 7.40pm. Got ready and went to Suraya's open house. Many people. Friends mostly. :) Around 9.15pm, went to Carlos. Hang out with Ayom and her friend for a while. Then hang out with Helmi, Araff & Dann. Then had a lil drama. But I got home around 10.35pm. :)

Sunday
Went to Tok ma's house . Then we went to an Open house. Nice foods. Great desserts. :) My family and Mack's family went. Met Dydy and her family. Kak dya was there too. Makan-makan. Went into the house. Made a move around 3 something maybe? I don't know. GOT DUIT RAYA WEH! :) Mizan, my lil cousin. He was too cute. Didn't wanna let my hand go. awww. Just so you know, we share the same birth date and month. :D Went to Tok ma's house after that. Lepak lepak kejap. Got home, got ready. Went out with eldest sister. Got back home around 7.45pm just in time for dinner. :) That's it.

Will update soon. No pictures. Lazy.