Whats on my mind

Let's see , everyone is asking me am I going to Summer splash . And I'm like answering to everyone NO ! And yet they keep asking me "are you going ? are you going ?" Well , let me make it clear here , I'M NOT GOING TO SUMMER SPLASH BECAUSE I'M LAZY NOT BECAUSE I CANNOT GO . I DIDN'T EVEN ASK MY PARENTS IF I CAN GO OR NOT BECAUSE I , MYSELF DO NOT WANT TO GO . haih . please stop asking me okay . If your intension of asking me is just to make me feel bad then hello ! please grow up . I'm not the type of a person who really really desperately need to go to this kind of events . If i feel like it , i'll go but if i don't ? why should i , right ? haih .. grow up and stop trying to make me feel bad or jealous because i won't .

Anyway , I keep having this dream which is about Ballet and also about my boyfriend cheating on me . Well , bout the Ballet part is just maybe because I miss doing ballet like pointing my toes , turning here and there , listening to the teacher screaming "point your toes ! Work harder !" haih . I just miss going to Ballet and Modern classes on Tuesdays , Fridays and Saturdays . Normally all I do is just dance but now ? all i do is just EAT ! Shit ! :( Well , the part where i keep dreaming about my boyfriend cheating on me . Yea , its sad you know . I once had a dream that he cheated on me with someone hotter and prettier right infront of my face . and when I woke up , I went to the toilet and cried my heart out . It's just that , it's scary dreaming like that you know . But anyway , he's coming back tomorrow so I hope I'll get things out and tell him .

hmmp , what more to say ? Oh , I just don't like it when this happens . You know the part where at first you say you're 100% confirm you're not going to some event but at the very last minute , you call or txt saying that you're going . I think people like that are just pathetic . I mean , if you've already made up your mind which is NOT GOING , then stick to it lah . Don't go changing your mind at the very last minute and inviting me to go even though you know that I've made up my mind from the start that I'm not going . I'm the type of a person who sticks to their principal and minds . When I say I'm not going , means I'm NOT going . If I say I'm not in the mood , means I'm NOT in the mood . If I say I'm lazy to go means that I'M LAZY not because i don't have the permission to go . haih , you people and your little minds . (no hard feelings to anyone . Siapa terasa , nasib la . )

Well , Khaleesa was supposed to sleepover my house today (saturday) , but then her mom doesn't allow because they have no maid and it's a weekend and some other reasons . haih , I've already planned what to do during our sleepover . But nvm then , maybe some other time . But I really really wanna meet up with you babe because there are tons of story that I NEED to tell you . I mean like , we share everything with each other so , it doesn't feel right when I don't tell you the stories that I need to tell you . Get it ? hahaha .

Haih , my boyfriend's best friend said that my boyfriend is going to Summer Splash tomorrow . but he said to me the other day that he's not going . SO yea . I don't know who to believe . I guess I'll ask my spies to let me know if they see him tomorrow . Oh you people must be wondering why can't I just call him and ask if he's going or not right ? Well , he doesn't have his phone because his father took it due to certain reasons and he's not back yet from some camp . So yea , I can't ask him . because he normally msg me using his mom's phone , but gila ke if i nak msg mak dia and tanye "aunty , anak aunty pegi tak Summer Splash ?" hahaha , crazy . She doesn't even know I exist in her son's life . Haih , sooner or later she'll know . HAHA .

Anyway , I'm watching The O.C Season 3 episode where Ryan gets his Bar mitzvahs? ( however you spell it ) well , there's this part where they all dance in a row to the song That's what friends are for . It seriously hit me when I listened to that song because I seriously miss my friends . Especially my girlfriends . haih , we normally do things together but I guess this holiday sucks for me because we didn't even hang out together . all together . haih :( sad . and tomorrow THEY ARE ALL going to Summer splash except Tasha and I . and Wei ling too , i think. but others are going . Well , have fun guys . =/

Other than that , I have nothing to blog about now .
Until next time , you know you love me , xoxo ...