all my fault , I know

Well , basically we BOTH have our issues . I know what you're going through , okay maybe I don't really know but you should know that you're not the only one who has a lot in mind . I too have problems okay . And I know certain things that I can't or just can't tell anyone cause it's personal . But I don't get pissed with people who's not even guilty .

Okay ,
I still have the guilty-ness feeling in my mind towards people who's innocent and didn't do any wrong .
I have the financial problems.
I'm sick :- Fever , flu and cough.

So you should have not just lepas kan your geram to me . You should understand how or what I'm going through . Maybe you're going through something too but tak patut la kan lepas dkt orang macam tu je.

I've been putting up with your attitude for the past 6 months we've been close , but now ? I just have to say this "You have to atleast try and change . Try and trow you ego and try to relax" I'm saying this as a friend . I don't like it when we fight or not talk to each other but somehow, i think its the best for now ? I mean , I think we should all take a break (time out/time alone) to just relax and think if we are best friends , TRUE friends , we should understand each other and not to just jump to a conclusion in a fight or not just to lepas geram to anyone . (no offence)

So yea , basically , all i want is , to forget EVERYTHING and just to start a new life with all of you (my true girl friends) . I really do appreciate and love our friendship but I don't want us to fight nor have any misunderstanding . I've had enough with all this table talks . We've done 2 table talks if I'm not mistaken , but then , nothing seems to change . Maybe a little , but not a big different . So what I want to do is just to have a LAST table talk and I want ALL of us to let go EVERYTHING . I don't want any silent from anyone . I want all of us to just say and let it out . Because I want that to be the last table talk we're gonna have . because I want everything to go back to normal like early this year . please .

Well , I hope this blog doesn't offend any of you people's feelings . It's just a taught that I feel like letting it out . And i did . So yea , I hope you understand me and I'll try to understand you . Please .

(okay you should just ignore the part where I say we should take a time out, because I think thats dumb ! But I want to find a way so that we can ALL be happy like how we've used to be before this . Seriously I want . So please help me . I can't be the only one finding a way to solve this puzzle . We as a group have to help each other . okay. )