And he has left. :(

I'm absolutely sad now. I slept at my grandparents house last night. Slept at 2.30 woke up at 4am for sahur and went to the airport at 5.45am. Helped ikram and Mama check in their bags. Walked around with Ikram, Ayom and his friend. I was already sad and about to cry, but I was holding back. I didn't want to show him. But the minute we were ALL walking to send him to the gate, tears started flowing down. Let me tell you why I'm so sad that Ikram has left.

We are really close. When we were small, Ikram used to come to my house and just hang out. Then, there's this one time, I think it was Hari Raya Korban, my dad brought Ikram and I to the Masjid to watch the korban lembu. Then Ikram was sick because he coudln't stand all the blood and stuff so he went back home. Then, Ikram, myself and my sisters, used to go to this club in KL for a swim. As you can see, I have been wanting a brother since I was small. And yes, I do had all this pet brothers and all. But it's not the same as your real brother right? Well, Ikram is like my real brother. We grew up together. He understands me.

Well, after sending him to the airport, I slept at home. I had this dream, memories. well, most of 'em. I know he's going to U.K to study and I'm happy for him. But, I've been thinking, who is gonna pull my hair, pukul me, fight with me everytime I go to my grandparents house? and who's gonna ask me this question :-

Ikram : Who's your boyfriend, B?
Baby : No one.
Ikram : Don't lie.

That conversation and sentence is a MUST to ask and say everytime we meet. And now, who's gonna ask me that? Well, I guess I'll be fine. He's doing this for his future. Hopefully he'll succeed (InsyaAllah). But this year, we're not gonna celebrate our Raya with him and Mama , but it's okay. There's always next year. and who knows, maybe after SPM, I'll be going there to visit him. Ain't it gonna be fun if I go the with my siblings and visit Ikram? Hopefully it's fun. ;D

Ikram if you're reading this, I just want you to know that, I am proud of you for who you are and I'm thankful that you're my cousin, Favorite cousin & best cousin. You're already a brother to me. I'll be praying for you, don't worry. I don't want you to pressure yourself. Have fun while studying! We'll see you in 2 months time, InsyaAllah. ;D