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Siblings.
Picture taken on Uncle Zaidan's 50th Birthday in January '09

Farabiha or better known as Angah, has left to Australia this morning. :( Honestly, I didn't want to cry because I know it's hard for Angah to see us, the family and friends who are sad that she's leaving. But the moment Tok Pa said, lets go. Mak Lala and Khaleesa told me to take a deep breath, I did it, but I cried straight away. It hit me. Knowing that she'll be away for a long period, it's hard. I'm really really close to my siblings. I tell them everything I do. Any problems I have, they will know. But now, Angah is so far away. I won't be able to talk to the that much. I won't see her face. :( Haih. It's sad.

Friends tried to calm me down when I was sad, but you guys just have to know, I need time to be comfortable about this. She's the first in my family (Ruslizan) who's going away to study. So it's hard for me. So, if you guys (friends) see that I'm sad, or if I cry out of a sudden, just bare with it. Bare with me for a while. I need time. Everyone needs time.

Angah, I know you always read my blog. So I hope you'll read this. I love you endlessly. I am so so so SO proud of you. I know you've been wanting to study away from Malaysia since you were small. And I'm proud that you have made this far. You are my role model. I look up to you. You have always been good to me. Even though you annoy me too much, lol. But it's ok. Because, I am sure that I'll be missing you annoyance (it that even a word?) haha. I will miss your silly jokes, your laughter, I'll miss everything about you! I LOVE YOU. Please make sure that you will ALWAYS update us about your life. How you are, your friends there, your new life there. I just don't know what to do without you. The house feels so empty without you. Your bising-bising. :) But overall, even though I don't like you moving away, but I am so proud of you. I'll be supporting you from here. Who knows, if my results are good, I'll be staying there with you next year? Insyaallah. Take care sis!

Anyway, I can't seem to remember what I did for the past few days. I'm just in the right situation to recall what I did. Let the past be the past. Memories are kept and lock in my heart and mind. So, I guess that's it for now. I'm bored at home! Friends are still in school, Ayom is in College. Dad's resting, Mom's with Angah. :( I feel lonely! I need a hug! I seriously do need one. :'(