Taking baby steps.

I miss laughing my heart out without having to cover my sadness. I want to be happy.

I've had it with all the drama. I'm done trying. I've tried too hard that it had made me weak. I surrender. You win. Everyone wins. I give up. I'm giving up in everything. Not just YOU but also him. I'm done. I'm done thinking about him everyday every minute. It hurts. But, I know i'll have to be strong. I'll try. But as for now, I'm weak, I'm tired, I give up and I've had enough. Enough with all the drama and shits.

All I need now is time to build up my confidence and my strength to face the facts. I'm not hiding from my problems. I'm hiding from the reality of live. I'm just taking a step back and trying to take baby steps to build everything back. I'm done thinking bout others. Because I know, in the end I'll end up hurting myself. Now, I would love to relax and like i said, take baby steps to prove to myself that I can do it. I can be strong, be confident, and do everything I like with enthusiasm. I know i can. I know I'll get that one day. One fine day.

I won't be all sad and depress thinking "why isn't he replying to my messages or wall or comment" or "why did they do this to me? Why did she betrayed me?" NO! I will definitely stop thinking about all this. I can't promise that I will forget all those in just a blink of eye, but I can promise that I'll try. I'm done with it. I'm done with their drama. Love comes when it's ready. I still remember , once I told Hanie that I don't have a boyfriend so whats the point of me doing the survey she tagged me. Then, she replied "lol..okay baby hahah someday you'll have one...just dont rush and it'll fall perfectly into the missing pieces" I believe in what she says. I won't rush. I'll just wait and let it all fall perfectly into the missing pieces in my life.

That's it for today. Not feeling like blogging for a while. Will rest for a while. Take care everyone. Starting today, I'm done thinking bout you. As if you care right? So, yea. that's my point. I'm done caring about her, and i'm done thinking bout him. If we, him and me are meant to be together, then we will one day. and as for her, if we are meant to be the best of friends (Like how i want it to be), then our friendship will be ok sooner or later.