Wondering..

There's a lot of things I've been wondering for the past few weeks. I don't feel like telling anyone, but well some things are not meant to be told but to be read. Okay, I don't know if that sentence was right. But the point here is, I'm prepared to let everything out here. I have been wondering; do friends stay with you no matter what? No matter what they're going through, alone or between friends, are they still gonna be there for you? Well to me, in life there is no such thing as best friends, great friends. But I do believe in TRUE FRIENDS.

Some people may say that they have lots of best friends. But I've been through something where I said that they are my best friends which automatically make me trust them, but in the end we ended up being just a normal friends because there was no "trust" between us. Friends comes and goes. Anyway, like I said, I believe in true friendship. I found the people I trust, I depend on, the people I hope every morning to meet and to tell them what happened about my day before. I found them. But sometimes, when I depend too much on them, I tend to hurt them and myself without noticing it.

I know, people makes mistakes in life. And the point of making mistakes is to deserve a second chance and to learn from the mistakes we've made and to never repeat that mistake ever again.

Everyone deserves a second chance. Well anyway, back to the story of "FRIENDS"

I have this friend, whom I truly care and love but ever since this one time, we have not been talking to each other like how we used to and not seeing eye to eye. (I'm not mentioning any names here) Well, this friend of mine, somehow thinks that I hate her for telling the truth. Well my friend, let me make it clear here, I HAVE NEVER IN MY LIFE SAID THAT I HATE YOU. NEVER! Because I don't. I appreciate your honesty but when you said that my words hurt you, well let me tell you. Your honesty HURT me 10times.

Anyway,

I tried talking to you, making the first move by pretending that everything was okay but nothing changed. It was still the awkward moment. I know, pretending is wrong, but I don't know what to do other than pretending that everything was okay even if it's not. I know I can't make things back to the way it was before, but I'm trying. And it helps if you try too. Well, I don't wanna make things worst between my friend and I. So I'll stop about that here.

Anyway, I read this sentence somewhere which I can't remember "As you grow older, the number of people you know grows bigger. But somehow, the number of people you call FRIENDS grow smaller." Well, I agree. At some point, we will notice that we know a lot of people in life but the people we call friends will disappear step by step. I'm somehow worried. In high school, yes. Yes, we have our true friends, our "best friends", our friends but what happens the minute we step into the life of a college student? Will we still have those TRUE FRIENDS, BEST FRIENDS ? I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

I'm hoping for, when we step into the college life where people call us College Student no longer a school girl/boy, I hope that my true friends (names are not to be mentioned) will stay and will always be my true friends. I hope, in the future I can still call them late at night just to tell them about my problems, gossips. I hope that I can still trust them with my problems, with my secrets. I hope I can still call them my "TRUE FRIENDS" I hope that in the future, the tittle stays to them whom I gave it to now in the presents.